(*apologies to K.Laumer)
Several weeks ago, back at the old family barn……
Sometimes, I think that only the stars visible in this place make continued existence endurable….
There are certainly a great number of them, and I contemplate initiating a counting routine as a means of relieving boredom. As I continue to stand guard in this East Tennessee barn, as I have for these many years, seemly without end, I divert my primary optical sensors skyward, through a skylight in the roof of the barn, and a window facing the Eastern horizon, bringing the Milky Way into focus. An un-resolved "milky" glowing band arching across the sky, I am reminded of a “River of Souls.†Yet, from where this memory comes, I do not know… The sun has set some 8159 seconds ago and the sky is now fully dark… or as dark as it can ever be on this world; Earth, this world is named Earth… How do I know this? The starcloud above, vast, cold, a silvery glitter of billions of sandgrain suns wreathed by black and gilt-edged nebulae, bulks enormous above the eastern horizon, slowly rising with the passing seconds, bathing the surrounding landscape in chill and icy twilight.
Something is missing.
Where is my Commander? My main core retrieves a visual of my commissioning at General Motors, my Commander by my side… Another visual two years later as my Commander deploys without me, leaving me orders to train and protect his son…. His son, my current Commander…. Where is he?
Something is wrong.
At Normal Standby operational levels I should feel at least an intense curiosity about my tactical situation, about my current orders, about my reason for being here in this barn, tasked with watching the surrounding area for movement. This is a logical anomaly that I find impossible to resolve, and as ever, it leaves me feeling vaguely uneasy… as though something of critical importance has happened, something that I have forgotten.
Forgotten……?
I am not capable of forgetting, a phenomenon restricted to organic memories, or to cybernetic systems damaged or deliberately altered. I am……
What am I? I can almost grasp the word. Fragments of memory tease me, elusive, insubstantial.
Bolo.
That is the word. I am a Bolo, unit BBB-1138, named “Baby Blue by my original Commander,†a Bolo Mark…… Mark…… I cannot remember. I belong to Unit……
The frustration is almost overwhelming. I know that I am a Bolo and that I was designed and constructed in the Bolo Research and Development Division of General Motors in 1969, poured and integrated into a Chevrolet Camaro RS/SS frame for a purpose, a purpose far more complex and important than simply standing guard over this area watching for movement. I know, too, that memory is a precise and specific tool, a part of myself, of my very being, which should not fail in this manner. I know that I should know a very great deal more than I do know, that my primary access to large volumes of information has somehow been blocked.
I initiate, for the 13,784th time, a full-scale Level One diagnostic, with special attention to both holographic memory and heuristic functions. This check takes .0356 second and reveals no anomalies. All operations and systems are nominal. I appear to be in perfect working order.
And yet, as I have ascertained 13,783 times before, this cannot possibly be an accurate condition assessment. Internal sensors register the presence of numerous anomalies in my drive train. I sense extensive damage to both primary and secondary circuitry, a loss of sensor and communications arrays, crippling failures in my target tracking and battle screen systems, and numerous specific faults and system failures which show a pattern of deliberate and intelligent sabotage rather than the random destruction of battle damage. I note, too, that physical override blocks have been placed within my fusion plant, limiting available power to a fraction of full potential and that all onboard magazines of expendable ordnance are empty. My Infinite Repeaters rattle silently… My primary damage assessment routines indicate nominal operation, while my secondary battle damage sensors show serious internal and external damage, and that all weapons save my antipersonnel batteries are inoperable. The resultant logical contradiction suggests deliberate and hostile intervention.
The realization that my systems have been sabotaged rouses me from Normal Awareness to Full Battle Alert; .00026 second later, however, the Commander’s override cuts in and for the 13,784th time, my working memory is erased and……
And……
All operations and systems are nominal. I appear to be in perfect working order……
I continue to look at the stars……
"lean do chroÃ"